My brother and I were born through in vitro fertilization. For those of you who need clarification, in vitro involves taking the eggs of one woman, fertilizing them with a man’s sperm, and then placing the fertilized eggs (now known as the blastocyst) into the womb on another woman. As you might imagine, this process is primarily used for couples who are struggling to have a child. My parents were said couple when they were first married. To make a long story short, as soon as they found a donor willing to part with her eggs to help another couple out, my parents jumped at the opportunity… bing, bang, boom, Ryan and myself are born, conveniently on the same day. Mom and Ryan have never seen eye to eye, just like my father and I have never seen eye to eye. What Ryan just told my mother though is simply heartless. I was listening to music upstairs while mom and Ryan were talking downstairs. I got bored of surfing the web and decided to chill with mom and see what she was up to. At this point, Ryan was heading to his room, with a look of disgust on his face. I asked mom if everything was okay and she proceeded to tell me what happened. The two of them had gotten into a disagreement regarding Ryan not wishing my father a happy father’s day. I don’t recall the exact details that lead up to what I’m about to tell you, but it escalated to the point where Ryan told mom that she’s not even his real mother; that he was done with her altogether and that when he has kids one day (God bless the woman that has sex with that douche… even more, bless their god forsaken children) he will make sure they have nothing to do with her. Complete exclusion. I’m am so enraged right now. My mother is one of the most caring, genuine, and kind hearted people that you will ever meet in your life, I promise you. That woman has been there for me in my lowest moments to pick me back up when no one else was there. Normally, something like this would make my mother cry. No, not this time. Mom told me with a blank face what he said… as if this is what she had expected him to say for a long time. It was just a matter of when. I’m so overwhelmed right now, I can’t even begin to process this. If this is how it’s going to be though, my relationship with my brother will diminish to nearly nothing when I’m older. And if that’s how it has to be, it’s how it has to be. Such is life.
Happy Father’s Day, everyone! Big shout out to my father, Bernard Kelly. We haven’t always seen eye to eye, that’s for sure. Things between him and I went sour around when I came out of the closet to him. I know he’ll more than likely never accept me for who I really am. But I am certain, deep down, there is a love in his heart for my brother and I that will never go out. I wouldn’t have made it this far in life and have experienced different things in life like skiing and golfing it it weren’t for him. Though things may be somewhat “iffy” at the moment, I will always love my father. I feel bad that I can’t be with him today (I’m at my friends for the weekend while he and my mom are in the cape) but will do my best to make it up to him. I believe a family outing to play golf was on the agenda to celebrate today, as golf is my dad’s all time favorite hobby (I hate the damn game) so we will have to reschedule it. But I love my dad and I hope he has a nice, relaxing day today.